Thursday, August 13, 2009 @3:51 AM
Dear Louis, There is really not much words I have left to say to you now. I think you've changed thoroughly to another person and... I don't know where the past you has gone to. I just don't see him anymore. Whatever I do for you, you don't feel anything. Be it whether you're moved, touched, happy, I can't do it. I can't make you feel all these emotions anymore. Honestly sometimes I ask myself, "You've only been with this guy for barely 2 months. Why are you so crazy, obsessed over him? And why are you willing to suffer so much without any complaints?" I don't know why either. But you make me fall so... Irrevocably in love with you.
Everyone's asking me why I'm doing so much for you. Just to get you back, when you're not appreciating anything, when you don't feel anything anymore. I don't know how, I don't know why. I only have one sentence in my mind, "I'm really willing to do everything for you, I don't need a single thing from you, I don't, I just want you to be by my side." Is that really asking for too much? I guess I was wrong in the past... With all the "I think", "I thought", "I guess", it really made you very angry because all I did was make assumptions. I couldn't help it, you know that? I thought too much... Because you are really, really so important to me. I assumed everything... Because I didn't want to invade your privacy and ask you stuff. I really don't want you to feel pressurized or stressed by me. As your girlfriend, all I want is to see you happy and I hope I can be the one who makes you happy as well...
But right now I don't know where your heart has gone to. All I can say now is you really once made me the happiest girl. You give me the feeling like... I'm on cloud nine, I have everything I need, life couldn't be better. As simple as life was with you... It made everything feel so perfect with just your presence. I just want to say, although the time you spent with me was really so short... You are the best boyfriend I ever had. And I want everyone who comes across your blog to know that as well. That's all I can say for now...
No matter who you like now, I don't have a say.
I cannot do anything anymore.
But if one day you really like her... Goodluck.
I just hope for you to be happy. :)
Yours truly,
Michelle.
